We're delighted to announce the winners of the 2019 PBS & Mslexia Women's Poetry Competition. We had some fantastic entries this year, our judge Malika Booker claimed: "The poems submitted were brave, experimental, found poems, traditional, formal and challenging in both theme, and subject matter."
The full list of our winners is as follows:
First Prize: Regi Claire, (Un)certainties
Second Prize: Jacqueline Saphra, Fishwife
Third Prize: Alex Toms, Daedelus in Therapy
Unpublished Poet Prize: Erin Coppin, Kindling
Runners Up:
Eloise Birtwhistle, Metastasis
Sarah Wimbush, The Ring
Ilse Pedler, Haibun of the Remembered
Susan Utting, Reconstructing my Father's Mother
Marlo Bester-Sproul, Therapy
Penny Boxall, Advent
Charlotte Buckley, Cell of Phantoms
Becky Cherriman, Surprise of Barn Owl
Michaela Coplen, Fortress
Nicola Daly, The Woman who Cut my Mother
Claire Dyer, Like This
Katie Hale, A 17th Century Guide to Beauty in Virginia
Leah Larwood, Gold Divers
Kate Potts, Bloom
JS Watts, The Undertaker's Daughter
Wendy Orr, A Parliament of Members
Throughout December we'll be releasing the winning poems on our blog. Today, you can read the incredible first-place poem by Regi Claire, described by Malika Booker as "a harrowing interrogation of a grievous tragedy using the structure of a multiple-choice form. These formal constraints serve to provide a never-ending relentless, haunting repetition and rendition that traps the reader in the unnerving unfolding narrative. This risky long poem is obsessive, ambitious and pulls no punches, daring the reader to leave the poem unaffected and unscarred. It is not your usual competition poem yet I could not help but marvel at the poem’s tenaciousness."
(Un)certainties
My sister once gave me
A. an ultramarine silk scarf
B. a star-shaped candlestick of clear glass
C. a guardian angel made from clay and driftwood
My sister loved
A. her family
B. her partner
C. kayaks
My sister’s partner loved
A. her
B. his family
C. kayaks
My sister and her partner loved
A. adventure
B. sports
C. water
D. the sea
My sister and her partner
A. had been on sea kayaking trips before
B. were familiar with that coastline
C. were offered a guided tour
D. trusted their abilities and experience
My sister sent her children
A. a WhatsApp message saying how excited she was about that day’s 10 km kayaking trip
B. a picture of the mirror-smooth sea
C. a selfie in a swim vest
D. emojis of dolphins
My sister’s postcard to our parents
A. was sent before the kayaking trip
B. was sent by hotel staff after the kayaking trip
C. arrived ten days after the kayaking trip, before her funeral
My sister died
A. on Friday 13th
B. on Saturday 14th
My sister’s partner did not die
A. on Friday 13th
B. on Saturday 14th
My sister died at sea, alone
A. soon after sunset in a storm
B. in the dark in a storm
C. at dawn, after a storm
D. in sunlight, on the morning after a storm
My sister’s partner clung to his kayak at sea, alone
A. from sunset to false dawn throughout a storm
B. from sunset to sunrise throughout a storm and the calm hours beyond
C. from sunset to sunlit morning throughout a storm and the calm hours beyond
My sister died because
A. she and her partner spent time on a series of beaches along the coast, picnicking, shell-gathering, sunbathing, resting
B. she and her partner spent time exploring the disused submarine tunnel under the cliffs
C. she was afraid of the dark inside the tunnel and so she sang, seated in her kayak as her partner listened, sang her heart out for the soaring echo of it, and the echo could not bear to lose her and her voice
My sister died because
A. the mirror smoothness of the water began to break, and broken mirrors bring bad luck
B. the waves were too small to seem alarming
C. the waves grew in strength only slowly
My sister died because
A. the land weather forecast was wrong
B. the sea weather forecast was wrong
My sister died because
A. she was first to round the headland, where the wind bore down on her from the mountains and whipped up the waves
B. her partner, some distance behind, saw her being driven off-course and decided to follow
C. the wind kept their kayaks apart, barely within shouting range, while the sun went down
D. her partner capsized and, holding on with his chin and both hands, could only watch as the sky darkened to storm-black and she sat upright in her kayak, cresting the waves out into the open sea
My sister and her partner
A. knew their GPS
B. knew they were a kilometre at most from the headland
C. could see the village with their hotel further down the coast
My sister and her partner managed to use their mobiles to contact
A. the kayak rental owner
B. the local police
C. the police in the neighbouring country
D. the coast guard
The last thing my sister and her partner told each other was
A. at least we’ve seen the sunset from out at sea, not just from the beach
B. I love you
C. let’s not panic
D. help is coming
Half a year earlier, my sister and her partner had visited an Indonesian sanctuary for retired elephants, which they helped wash in the nearby stream, getting soaked to the skin.
Half a lifetime earlier, she and her husband had given their babies a bath every night, getting soaked to the skin.
A lifetime earlier, she and I had played in the stream next to our house, catching tadpoles and damming the water with pebbles, twigs and mud, getting soaked to the skin.
My sister died
A. because she capsized
B. because she lost her kayak
C. because she lost hope
D. from the intake of too much sea water
E. from exhaustion
F. in panic
G. in peace
My sister died because
A. the kayak rental owner did not have a motorboat for emergencies
B. the kayak rental owner told her and her partner to phone the local police
C. it was the weekend and the police were short-staffed
D. there was no coast guard
E. there were no helicopters
F. the passengers on the regular ferry services did not notice the torchlight from her partners’ mobile as he moved it in circles above his head until the battery was flat
G. the coast guard of the neighbouring country arrived too late
My sister was found
A. 5 hours after the storm began
B. 10 hours after the storm began
C. 16 hours after the storm began
My sister was found
A. near the coast
B. 15 km away
C. 25 km away, close to the beaches of a small island advertised for family holidays
My sister’s partner was rescued after clinging to his kayak
A. for 5 hours
B. for 10 hours
C. for 15 hours
My sister and her partner were found
A. near each other
B. in separate locations
My sister’s partner was taken
A. to his hotel
B. to a local hospital
C. to a hospital on an island in the neighbouring country
My sister’s partner
A. was only slightly injured
B. had nerve damage to one hand
C. would make a complete physical recovery
D. would never fully recover
My sister’s partner had
A. no phone numbers for her family
B. no phone numbers for his children
C. to wait for his mobile to dry out in a bag of uncooked rice before he could get any phone numbers
D. to use someone else’s mobile
E. to use a pay phone
My sister’s partner was visited in hospital
A. by his children
B. by his Consul General
C. by an ambulance chaser
After my sister and her partner were found, the kayak rental owner contacted the helpline of the Department of Foreign Affairs of their home country
A. to report the accident
B. to inform them of the death and injury
C. to request compensation for the lost kayak
My parents were notified
A. later than the Department of Foreign Affairs
B. later than local and international news media
Several months after my sister’s funeral her partner
A. returned to the country where the accident had happened, to complete the photography commission that had originally taken him there
B. visited the kayak rental owner
C. undertook another kayaking trip by himself along the same coast
D. started a new relationship
My sister’s partner died
A. 6 months after the storm
B. 12 months after the storm
C. 15 months to the day after the storm
My sister’s partner died
A. on Saturday 12th
B. on Sunday 13th
My sister’s partner died
A. of a massive heart attack
B. of a broken heart
C. of heart strain caused by the accident
D. of congenital heart disease
My sister and her partner are
A. buried in the same cemetery
B. buried near each other in the same cemetery
C. not buried in the same cemetery
My sister’s cat
A. never slept on her bed
B. stayed on my sister’s bed in the empty house for several months after her death, fed by neighbours
C. did not die the following summer
At my sister’s funeral I met a distraught young man she had supported with therapy sessions.
‘But where did your sister die?’ he asked. ‘Where? What is the name of the town? The place?’
When I tried to explain, he did not understand.
Could not.